I know...I feel like I talk about this on almost every post lately, but it truly is reflective of this rut I've been in for a minute now. Hence, no posting in over a month. I loved taking pictures and sharing my looks with people, but suddenly the desire went to the back burner...along with a lot of other things in my life. Taking care of myself like I once did was one of them. I just kinda got caught up in the whirlwind of life, eating what I want, drinking almost every day of the week, waking up late, just kinda going on a downward spiral. I was sad about where I am in terms of my career, depressed about my looks, feeling like I had no support system - you name it, I felt it. What spurred this? No clue, is it something that could've been prevented? Absolutely, I think. It gets to a point where you start to enjoy staying in the comforting pain, or sadness , or whatever the fuck it is. It's like the crunkest pity party. However, once you see that none of your goals are getting accomplished, or you aren't even keeping up with your normal habits to keep afloat, shits gotta change. So, I take it one day at a time, accomplish one more thing than the day before. Change doesn't have to be abrupt, it just has to happen. And that's where I am now. Making change to be the me i used to be, you never know that you like yourself so much until you step out if it. The Lord does work in mysterious ways I guess huh?