Notice something different? I changed my font! It's something small I know, but a step into revamping this site a bit. I've been playing with changing my layout for a while now, but all the tech savvy required to change my font kind of exhausted me for the moment and there you have it - a brand new title font. I'm pleased :).
Anywho, today is day one of being of my three week cleanse and does it feel great (I can drink coffee sweet Jesus!)! I usually always cleanse at the top of each year just to press that restart button and recover from the holidays. Let me tell you, the tail end of 2016 was nothing pretty for ya girl. I in total gained 17 - how ironic - pounds and she is devastated. I've gone through my little mini depression and self scolding sessions ("how could you let yourself go like this?!" "How am I gonna get this off?!) and am just coping with the fact that I have to put in the work. I have never related to the saying, "You don't know what you got 'til it's gone" until now. Looking back on pictures from a year or two ago when I thought I was two steps away from being a candidate for gastric bypass surgery - seriously - I now realize I was totally fine and looked amazing. Now that I have gotten over all of that, lol, it's really sobering to come out from under and start all over again. You have so many doubts - can I do it again? Do I have the same willpower as before? I'm over 25 isn't my metabolism shit now?! - but, you have to move forward and make lifestyle changes. By the way, is what I never really did. I'm an extremist. Like one of those people who have to have it all or nothing at all. So extreme dieting was always my weight loss mechanism of choice. To me, small lifestyle changes are the hardest, because I have no control. Or at least my mind tricks me into thinking. Self control comes into play on so many things in adult life, which can make the day to day not seem so fun, but the long run that much better. Discipline. That's what it is, discipline. I'm really praying for discipline in all areas of my life: spending, eating, working, etc. Discipline is an amazing tool that can take your life to the next level. So, here's to exercising (no pun intended) discipline. More on how i'm losing this weight in posts to come. I'll work on being disciplined enough to post some healthy food options! ;)